MY INITIATION INTO THE LIGHTNING GODDESS

Some awakenings arrive gently.
Mine didn’t.
Mine announced itself as lightning — first in a dream, then in my life.
It was July 2025.

I didn’t go looking for Chinnamastā.
Chinnamastā came looking for me.

What followed was not a “spiritual moment,” not a nice insight, not a symbolic shift.
It was an initiation — the kind that slices through the versions of you you no longer have permission to be.

Lightning cracked open in a dream.
Heat rose through my spine.
A mantra surfaced that didn’t feel learned — it felt remembered.

And from that moment on, nothing in my life could remain the same.

This is the story of how she arrived, how she broke me open,
and how the pieces rearranged themselves into a life I didn’t know was waiting for me.

It’s not an introduction.
It’s the threshold.

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the lightning dream, the spine-heat rising, the rain-run,
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I. WHEN THE LIGHTNING FOUND ME

It began with a dream — not soft, not symbolic, not forgettable.
A bolt of lightning ripped across the sky inside my mind, so real it felt like it left a crack in my chest.

I woke up knowing something had been opened.

The very next day, without trying, I picked up a book I was already reading and landed directly on her:

Chinnamastā.

The fierce one.
The truth-bringer.
The Goddess who doesn’t ask permission to rearrange your life — she simply begins.

I didn’t know her name, but my body reacted instantly.
It was the recognition of someone ancient.

Around this same time, a heat had been building in my lower back.
A pressure I couldn’t explain.
At first, I dismissed it as tension — but it wasn’t.
It was a signal.

And then, without planning it, I felt this deep inner pull to chant her name.

Not curiosity.
Not practice.
A summons.

I followed it.

And the moment I surrendered to that inner pull, this mantra rose through me like something ancient remembering itself:

This is not a chant to “try for fun.”
It is a summoning — one that initiates real severances, real clarity, and real shifts.

If you call her, she comes.
And when she comes, she removes what cannot remain.

I didn’t know this fully at the time.
But my life was already rearranging itself.

WHO SHE IS — AND WHY SHE ARRIVED THROUGH MY SPINE

Before this, I had no relationship with Chinnamastā.
But once she appeared, everything finally made sense.

Chinnamastā is one of the Mahāvidyās — the fierce, liberating faces of the Divine Mother.
She represents the exact moment you outgrow a version of yourself and can no longer pretend otherwise.

She is the lightning strike.
The timeline shift.
The “no more” that changes your life forever.

She destroys nothing that is meant to stay.
She destroys only what keeps you small.

Why My Lower Back Was the First to React

In Tantra, her activation begins in the Mulādhāra Chakra — the root center at the base of the spine, where our earliest beliefs, survival patterns, and inherited identities are stored. That heat I felt wasn’t pain. It was pressure building for a breakthrough. My foundation was preparing to crack open.

The Mulādhāra is not just an energy center — it’s the archive of everything you were taught to believe before you ever had a choice.

This is where the body stores:

• Root beliefs — the invisible assumptions you inherited about safety, worthiness, and what is possible for you.
• Survival patterns — the behaviors you adopted to stay loved, accepted, or unhurt.
• Subconscious agreements — the silent contracts you made with yourself and others: who you must be, what you’re allowed to want, what you must tolerate.
• Past identities — the versions of you that you outgrew but continued carrying because no one showed you how to release them.

When a goddess like Chinnamastā begins moving through the Mulādhāra, she doesn’t start with your mind — she starts with your foundation.
She goes straight to the place where your life was built on old agreements and unexamined truths.

That heat wasn’t discomfort.
It was activation.
A pressure building as the old scaffolding began to loosen.

It was the sense of something ancient shifting, something that had been locked in place finally starting to move.
It was the body preparing to let go of everything it had been taught to hold.

It wasn’t pain — it was the sound of a foundation preparing to crack open so a new truth could finally come through.

II. RUNNING IN THE RAIN

One day — without planning, without thinking — I stepped into the pouring rain and started running.

Lightning cracked above me like punctuation.
Rain soaked through me like blessing water.

It felt like my body and the sky were syncing.

Looking back, this was the moment the initiation sealed.

The dream opened the door.
The mantra activated the energy.
But the storm — the storm was the ritual.

III. THE CUT I DIDN’T SEE COMING

After the lightning and the rain, the clarity arrived.

There was a business relationship in my life that had quietly expired.
Not dramatic.
Not toxic.
Just not aligned.

Before Chinnamastā, I might have tried to hold on longer, smooth things over, make it work.

But when a Goddess of truth is moving through your spine, you can’t pretend anymore.

The ending unfolded naturally.
Easily.
Almost gracefully.

No fight.
No tension.
No aftermath.

And for the first time in a situation like this, I was the one who walked away — not out of fear, not out of ego, but out of self-alignment.

It felt clean.
It felt precise.
It felt like the cut had already happened in the dream and I was simply catching up.

IV. WHAT THE GODDESS GIVES AFTER SHE TAKES

People fear Chinnamastā because they only see the severing.
But they don’t understand her blessing:

She clears the blockage so your real timeline can land.

And in my life?
It landed fast.

Almost immediately, my YouTube channel — the one I had been nurturing for months — produced its first viral video.

It felt like the universe saying:
Good. Keep going.

And then the next wave came: new business ventures, new opportunities, new ideas that actually felt like me.

Things that made me happy.
Things that energized me.
Things that belonged to the version of myself I had stepped into.

She didn’t take my life apart.
She took what didn’t belong anymore.

And once that was gone, everything meant for me rushed in.

I didn’t lose anything.
I aligned with everything.

V. HOW TO WORK SAFELY WITH CHINNAMASTĀ

Here is the truth most people don’t tell you:

Chinnamastā is not a beginner deity.
She is an initiation.

She doesn’t ease her way into your life.
She arrives with purpose — and when she arrives, things move.

This is why approaching her with respect isn’t just devotional…
it’s energetic self-care.

She responds to clarity, not chaos.

If you come to her because you’re desperate, confused, or trying to control an outcome, she won’t play along.

Chinnamastā is the goddess of the clean cut — the truth that slices through illusion.
She won’t remove what you’re still clinging to.
She won’t reveal what you’re not ready to see.
She won’t sever what you’re secretly trying to keep.

When NOT to invoke her:

• When you are emotionally unstable
• When you’re trying to “fix” someone else
• When you’re running from your own shadow
• When you want a specific person or outcome
• When you’re asking for power without responsibility

She is not ornamental energy.
She is catalytic force.

Chinnamastā chooses you, not the other way around.

You do not “decide” to work with her.
You recognize that she is already working through you.

The lightning dream.
The rain-run.
The lower back heat.
The clean ending.

These were all her calling cards.

How to ground yourself after working with her:

• Touch the earth — literally. Grass, stone, soil.
• Drink warm water with intention.
• Anchor your breath low in the belly.
• Speak out loud what is true now.
• Do not re-engage old patterns — she cut them for a reason.

Chinnamastā gives clarity, not chaos.
But clarity can feel like chaos when you aren’t ready to live in it.

She doesn’t ask you to be fearless.
She asks you to be honest.

VI. SIGNS SHE IS WORKING IN YOUR LIFE

People often ask, “How do I know if Chinnamastā is present?”

Here is what I’ve learned — through experience, not theory.

These are the signatures of her movement:

1. Sudden clarity that feels like lightning

Not slow realization.
Not emotional processing.
A clean, sharp knowing.

2. Clean endings — not collapses

Relationships, jobs, identities, habits…
They don’t blow up.
They dissolve.

3. Pressure or heat in the spine

Especially lower back or base-of-spine warmth.
The kunda activating.

4. Storm symbolism or literal storms

Lightning.
Thunder.
Sudden rain.
They become mirrors of your inner state.

5. Impulse to purge or cut what no longer belongs

Dealing with clutter.
Clearing contacts.
Ending commitments.
Setting boundaries.

This is her.

6. Hyper-intuitive decision-making

You don’t “think about it.”
You just know.

7. Rapid timeline shifts

Just like my own:
A viral YouTube moment.
New business pathways appearing immediately after the ending.

She removes blockage so the path can open.

If your life feels like it’s reorganizing around a deeper truth —
that’s her.

VII. THE REPATTERNING PHASE

What most people misunderstand is that the cut is only half the work.

The real transformation is what happens after the severance.

When Chinnamastā takes something out of your field, the universe doesn’t leave a void.
It rushes to fill the space with what finally matches your frequency.

This is the repatterning phase.

The timeline reorganizes itself.

New opportunities appear because your signal is cleaner.

You stop tolerating what drains you.

The old self no longer fits.

You magnetize what reflects your actual identity.

This is why my YouTube began to grow.
Why new ventures came toward me.
Why my joy increased.

When the block is gone, the current moves.

Why viral moments happen after spiritual cuts

Because your energy stops leaking.
You become coherent.
You become magnetic.

Some people call it luck.
It’s not.
It’s alignment.

VIII. WHY CHINNAMASTĀ APPEARS TO CERTAIN SOULS

Chinnamastā doesn’t come to everyone.

She appears to the ones standing at the threshold of becoming —
the souls who can feel the tectonic shift beneath their own life.

She comes when:

• Your identity is collapsing.

Not in a crisis way — in a rebirth way.

• You’re ready to walk your dharma path.

She clears lineage patterns, ancestral weight, limiting beliefs.

• You have leadership in your destiny.

Leaders must be unbound.
Unentangled.
Unconflicted.

• A false self must die for the true self to emerge.

This is her domain.

She comes for people who are meant to live honestly —
who cannot afford to pretend anymore.

IX. THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN CHAOS AND CHINNAMASTĀ

Not every disruption is divine intervention.

Here is how you tell the difference:

**Chaos feels confusing.

Chinnamastā feels clarifying.**

**Chaos drains your energy.

Chinnamastā frees it.**

**Chaos brings instability.

Chinnamastā brings inevitability.**

**Chaos feels messy.

Chinnamastā feels clean.**

Her endings are precise.
Surgical.
Peaceful even if intense.

If you feel panic — that’s not her.
If you feel truth — that’s her.

X. HOW TO INTEGRATE HER ENERGY AFTER THE INITIATION

Integration is where the magic becomes livable.

Here’s what I learned:

1. Ground your body.

Walk barefoot.
Hold stones.
Sit with your breath.

2. Honor the new identity.

Write the truths that emerged.
Speak your boundaries out loud.
Behave as the you that was revealed.

3. Don’t go back to what she cut.

That doorway is closed for a reason.

4. Create something.

Art, writing, video —
Chinnamastā opens the creative channel wide.

5. Move gently but decisively.

She doesn’t demand speed.
She demands honesty.

6. Keep your energy clean.

No gossip.
No resentment.
No energetic leakage.

She gives power —
but it’s your job to hold it.

XI. A SOFT BLESSING / DEVOTIONAL CLOSE

If you are reading this and feel something stirring —
a memory, a fear, a curiosity, a recognition —
trust what rises.

Chinnamastā doesn’t move randomly.
She moves with purpose.

May your clarity come gently if possible,
and precisely if necessary.

May the truths rising in you feel like liberation,
not loss.

May you honor what is ending
and welcome what is beginning.

And if she is calling you…
may you have the courage to answer.

Not with fear,
not with force —
but with the quiet power of someone
finally ready to live their real life.